I’d invite you back to one of my favorite cafes closer to home. You came here about two coffees ago; remember their iced coffee? So good! Isn’t it great that the cafe is empty today and we have the space to ourselves? The place is quiet save for the Tribe Called Quest record that’s spinning, the softly chattering voices of the staff downstairs and the noise of the aircon being pumped through the room. As much we both love company, it’s nice to have the place to ourselves; it’s like we own the space!
How has your week been? What have you been up to since we last spoke? Any news or updates about the activities/events/things that you were looking forward to or dreading last week?
The week was relatively quiet for me. My nan went to Bangkok with a group of retirees who she exercises with on a weekly basis. Work hasn’t been anything special – productive and busy as always – but nothing out of the ordinary happened. This week I’ve realised how much I get through every day on autopilot. I don’t think, I don’t question, I just do. Sometimes it’s easier to ignore that fact and just do but other times it’s startlingly apparent. Autopilot is easier because it helps me to forget the not-so-good parts of the “routine” that I have established here: Wake up-Eat-Work-Exercise (occasionally)-Home-Eat-Sleep and repeat. Thoughts of the other stuff that I don’t have in my life here, I usually just push aside to a corner of my cave where the light cannot reach.
Okay, so maybe it’s been a bit of a low week but it’s fine. Sometimes we have our off weeks, right? We just have to work through it. I’ve been thinking a lot about how easy it is to feel lonely here even when I’m surrounded by people (my colleagues) every day. A lot of events this week have led my thoughts to circle back to relationships and that kind of companionship. I don’t know why but the seed was planted in my brain last week and I can’t seem to shake it loose. I miss that kind of companionship. I miss obsessing over shows, movies, food, music and life (in general) with someone who feels the same way. I miss going out and sharing exciting adventures with someone. I miss being goofy and real with someone. I miss coming home to someone and knowing that they will take away everything shitty that happened and heighten every good thing and feeling. I miss having someone to just hold me because they can. I guess I just miss having someone…
What? Oh, I guess I really got sucked into my lonesome-romantic fantasies there, didn’t I? Sorry… It sucks to be a hopeless romantic and still be so cynical at the same time; I feel like these two parts of me are always constantly at war! Anyway, I’m just going to look forward to enjoying the rest of my weekend and hope that the lonely feeling goes away and the week ahead is better
Thanks for the coffee and listening to me babble. I’m really grateful for your company and I can’t wait until we have coffee again; next week, as usual?
This post is part of the #WeekendCoffeeShare event hosted by Part-Time Monster. Check out my previous coffee shares here, and other coffee moments from around the world here. And hey, if you’re interested, why not join in the coffee sharing fun?